Hear ME!

I'm a soft spoken person. I always have been. I mean what do you expect when you've been groomed most of your life to be invisible. I've been through a lot in my life, some really tragic stuff and through it all, I found my voice but what difference does it make if no one hears me?

I am one of the most genuine people you will meet(my opinion) and I love making others laugh, usually at my expense as I really don't take myself very seriously. Who cares if you laugh at me, I laugh at myself quite often. Laughter makes life better.

There's one thing I don't care for about myself though. I can't get loud. I feel like I was groomed to be stifled. I can really tell it when I'm singing (no, I'm not a singer but in the shower or my car, I'm a rockstar.. lol). Even going to sporting events or concerts, I scream along with the rest of the crowd and I feel like it's just a whisper in the wind. Some of my friends think it's funny and some of my colleagues too but I find it so frustrating. It really pains me if in a crowded room or with a group of people and I have to speak, no one hears me and all I hear is speak up or scream but they don't even realize that I already am. I just want people to hear me.

I'm looking into getting voice lessons so I can come out of my proverbial shell so to speak. I just want to be heard, HEAR ME NOW!!

Let's Try This Again- I'm BACK!

Hello readers. I'm BACK. 

It's now 2016 and I am going to try to diligently write more. I have so much going in my head and my life. I've been thinking about life a lot lately, the things that I've survived and experienced. Life really is like a roller coaster with both ups and downs but lately mostly downs. I know this ride isn't over yet and it's destined for the up side.

There's been so much going on in the world and in my life and although I do write in a journal daily, I try my best to at least, I will also share some of my thoughts here to see if others feel the same way. It's crazy how much potential and passion I  have on the inside and I'm excited to share with everyone. This is very new to me because I have always been the private and quiet one. For as long as I can remember I have been taught to be quiet, don't cause trouble just go with the flow and I did so to a damaging fault. I'm over doing that shit. Keeping your mouth shut when people are doing wrong or treating others wrongly and you're being silent is JUST as bad. Make noise, bring attention to those who treat you and others' badly. It is not okay by any means. Love yourself enough to fight for yourself. Once you are strong for yourself, you can be strong and help others. Many ideas, thoughts and dreams will be shared. Please feel free to share with me.

I'm going to write these thoughts out of my mind. It's my life, my thoughts and my feelings here. Nothing really instructional but I hope my mistakes help someone else. That's all for now. Take care until next time.

This is a non-negative zone though, I don't mind disagreement and debate but hate and disrepectfulness will get your ass blocked.

Candi in HD