Hear ME!

I'm a soft spoken person. I always have been. I mean what do you expect when you've been groomed most of your life to be invisible. I've been through a lot in my life, some really tragic stuff and through it all, I found my voice but what difference does it make if no one hears me?

I am one of the most genuine people you will meet(my opinion) and I love making others laugh, usually at my expense as I really don't take myself very seriously. Who cares if you laugh at me, I laugh at myself quite often. Laughter makes life better.

There's one thing I don't care for about myself though. I can't get loud. I feel like I was groomed to be stifled. I can really tell it when I'm singing (no, I'm not a singer but in the shower or my car, I'm a rockstar.. lol). Even going to sporting events or concerts, I scream along with the rest of the crowd and I feel like it's just a whisper in the wind. Some of my friends think it's funny and some of my colleagues too but I find it so frustrating. It really pains me if in a crowded room or with a group of people and I have to speak, no one hears me and all I hear is speak up or scream but they don't even realize that I already am. I just want people to hear me.

I'm looking into getting voice lessons so I can come out of my proverbial shell so to speak. I just want to be heard, HEAR ME NOW!!